Meaning of “6.18.18” by Billie Eilish
As can be noticed from the onset, the title of this track is actually a date – June 18, 2018. This was the day upon which a close friend and role model of Billie’s, the late rapper XXXTentacion, was murdered. As such, she wrote and dedicated this song to him in the wake of that tragedy.
The track starts off with Billie acknowledging that indeed her friend is dead. Owing to this, she no longer has the opportunity to express words to him that she wanted him to hear. She is of course devastated but understands that her love is not going to bring him back.
The chorus finds Billie desiring to put the past behind her as in accept the fact that her friend is dead and move on. However, thoughts of him permeate her thinking, and she still very much loves XXXTentacion.
The second verse is based on Eilish being in direct communication with XXXTentacion around the time he died. Apparently she had sent him a message and was expecting a reply but instead came to find out that he was murdered. This news affected her so strongly that she needed assistance to get home upon hearing it. And now she feels a sense of guilt in that she was not able to tell her friend goodbye.
Additionally, the bridge finds Billie expressing that they are too young to die. Indeed XXXTentacion didn’t even reach the age of 21, which is a fact Eilish brings up in the song. And she once again alludes to the monumental grief she felt by stating that she almost prayed when he died. But apparently her disbelief in God prevented her from doing such.
Ultimately the sentiment expressed throughout this song is not only one of mourning but also disappointment on the part of Billie in that she did not use the opportunity to tell a friend how much she cared while he was still around to hear those words.