Meaning of “Idontwannabeyouanymore” by Billie Eilish

“Idontwannabeyouanymore” is the title of a 2017 single released by American singer Billie Eilish. On this single, Eilish addresses, among other things, her struggles with self confidence and insecurities.

She doesn’t like the fact that she’s not secure in herself as well as her abilities. Aside her problems with insecurities and self confidence, she generally leads an unhappy life. Owing to this, she wishes she was someone else other than her. Hence the birth of the following heart wrenching line:

 “I don’t want to be you anymore”

The pronoun “you” from the line above clearly refers to her. When she looks into the mirror, she just doesn’t want to be that person she sees. Not anymore! Eilish repeats that sad line multiple times throughout the song.

In summation, this is nothing short of a self-loathing song. Eilish hates herself so much that she can’t stand being who she is even for a second! A really scary thing if you asked us!

Is this song about suicide?

Despite its theme being about self-hatred, it isn’t explicitly a suicide song. However, it should be known that self-hatred has a strong connection to suicide. Why? Because studies have shown that it can cause one to begin having suicidal thoughts.

The lyrics of are real

According to Eilish, “Idontwannabeyouanymore” is an “inside of me song”. On post on Instagram, she told her fans to listen to the song if they’d want to hear what resided deep inside her head and feel her feelings.

Here are Eilish’s words regarding the meaning of this song:

Meaning of "idontwannabeyouanymore"

 

Facts about “Idontwannabeyouanymore”

  • Billie Eilish co-wrote this self-belittling song with her brother Finneas O’Connell. The latter went on to produce the track.
  • The track’s official release date was July 21, 2017. It was released as the final single from Eilish’s debut EP titled Don’t Smile at Me.
  • Eilish’s team created a vertical video for the song. Owing to this, “Idontwannabeyouanymore” became the first song of Eilish’s career to have a vertical video made for it. The video was directed by Eli Born.
  • Eilish was only just 15 years old when this song came out.

Did this song chart?

Yes, it did. It reached number 11 in Sweden and number 82 in Canada. On the U.S. Bubbling Under Hot 100 Singles, it peaked at number 2. It is therefore one of her successful songs.

 

20 Responses

  1. theresa peterson says:

    I love this song so much! But when you really listen carefully to the song you find out there is such a deep meaning to it! Thank you! So beautiful omggg

  2. Tamara says:

    Whilst the lyrics to this song may make the writer uncomfortable… it is in fact the way many people truly feel. Wether we think they are beautiful, talented, successful or not. There are so many reasons a person comes to this feeling and it’s a hard hike to dig out of. That path to loving yourself is steep and littered with many internal perils.

    • Anonymous says:

      I currently feel like this after coming to some conclusions about who I really am and it’s hard feeling stuck inside yourself like this like you want to be someone else but all you get to be is you ..it is really lonely and hard not to feel like this ..talking to yourself and hating yourself ..looking in the mirror and wishing that you could see something different ,be someone different ..what can I say I understand this song on some deep level of pain ..i wish I did not relate to this song ..it sucks

  3. Sonia says:

    Everyone has felt this way. I’m glad it was made into a song . Writing, Singing it’s all therapeutic! Part of learning who we are…

  4. Anonymous says:

    I’m glad she can express her feelings in a way that she loves. I feel this song can help others including herself to push through the struggles of other people opinions.

  5. Nobody's business says:

    People mainly feel this way because of societies standards. For example I thought I looked good until I got whip lashed by society telling me I look ugly.

    • Loveyourself says:

      Here’s a quote that I read on the internet that I feel really reflects what you said:
      “You are beautiful, it is society that is ugly.”
      -Anonymous

  6. Anonymous says:

    i cry so hard to this song every single time i hear it, because i’m currently in a very rough patch of my life and can usually relate to the lyrics.

    • I'mbeautifulandsoareyou says:

      I just read your comment and I want you to know whoever you are you are beautiful! I hope you rough patch smoothed over! I’m praying for you dear person. I was a teen at one point who starved herself, binge ate and other things to stay try to get skinny. I pray you find self love one day soon too.

      • Anonymous says:

        why would you binge eat in attempt to get skinny yo?????

        • rowan says:

          bc binge eating is a part of bulimia – binge eating constantly without control and then purging – getting rid of the calories by making yourself vomit or misusing laxatives in order to lose weight

    • Anonymous says:

      hey! i hope you’re doing amazing now.

  7. phopho says:

    could this also mean that you shouldn’t try to be someone else? i need to write an essay ab it >:I

  8. Avast zumac says:

    I’ve been listening to this for as long as I can remember to the extent of memorizing every verse, but I hadn’t taken the time to listen to the message. Apparently, it’s what am going to do Now.

  9. Anonymous says:

    Yall don’t even know how much this has helped me.

  10. HappyOutside,DeadInside says:

    I love this song so much! It’s one of my favorite songs from Billie Eilish. When I heard it for the first time, I was like: “This song is beautiful yet sad.” This song is so relatable because every time I look at the mirror, I could see my reflection. I hate seeing myself in the mirror like I’m a ugly monster. I kept telling to myself whenever I look at my reflection: “I hate seeing you, and your face. I don’t like you nor appreciate you.” And I really didn’t like myself for real…

  11. Kassidi says:

    I used to relate to the song because I tried doing everything to my face and body to make my self look good and perfect but now I’m confident but I feel bad for all of yalll that feel that way 🙁

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