Meaning of “Idontwannabeyouanymore” by Billie Eilish
“Idontwannabeyouanymore” is the title of a 2017 single released by American singer Billie Eilish. On this single, Eilish addresses, among other things, her struggles with self confidence and insecurities.
She doesn’t like the fact that she’s not secure in herself as well as her abilities. Aside her problems with insecurities and self confidence, she generally leads an unhappy life. Owing to this, she wishes she was someone else other than her. Hence the birth of the following heart wrenching line:
“I don’t want to be you anymore”
The pronoun “you” from the line above clearly refers to her. When she looks into the mirror, she just doesn’t want to be that person she sees. Not anymore! Eilish repeats that sad line multiple times throughout the song.
In summation, this is nothing short of a self-loathing song. Eilish hates herself so much that she can’t stand being who she is even for a second! A really scary thing if you asked us!
Is this song about suicide?
Despite its theme being about self-hatred, it isn’t explicitly a suicide song. However, it should be known that self-hatred has a strong connection to suicide. Why? Because studies have shown that it can cause one to begin having suicidal thoughts.
The lyrics of are real
According to Eilish, “Idontwannabeyouanymore” is an “inside of me song”. On post on Instagram, she told her fans to listen to the song if they’d want to hear what resided deep inside her head and feel her feelings.
Here are Eilish’s words regarding the meaning of this song:
Facts about “Idontwannabeyouanymore”
- Billie Eilish co-wrote this self-belittling song with her brother Finneas O’Connell. The latter went on to produce the track.
- The track’s official release date was July 21, 2017. It was released as the final single from Eilish’s debut EP titled Don’t Smile at Me.
- Eilish’s team created a vertical video for the song. Owing to this, “Idontwannabeyouanymore” became the first song of Eilish’s career to have a vertical video made for it. The video was directed by Eli Born.
- Eilish was only just 15 years old when this song came out.
Did this song chart?
Yes, it did. It reached number 11 in Sweden and number 82 in Canada. On the U.S. Bubbling Under Hot 100 Singles, it peaked at number 2. It is therefore one of her successful songs.