Meaning of “Ilomilo” by Billie Eilish
This song is actually named after a popular video game for Windows. However, the track is not about the game. Rather it is loosely based on the game’s plot, which is to reunite two separated friends. In other words, “ilomilo” is based on Billie Eilish’s fear of separation from the person she loves and the desire for him to remain perpetually close to her.
Throughout this track, Billie uses terminology associated with death such as “can’t lose another life” or “friends I’ve had to bury”. Some have speculated that she may be referencing actual deceased friends, such as the late rapper XXXTentacion who passed away in 2018. However, these terms are more likely symbolic of a strong desire not to lose her friend in general and/or Billie referencing subjugating parts of her own personality.
The lyrics show that Billie is indeed anxious and is going out of her way to please the person she is singing to. As aforementioned, this anxiety is based on her being afraid that this person will depart and never return. In fact her fear is so great that she does not want him to leave her company in general. Moreover, she believes that the love she has to share is incomparable to what he will find in the outside world. And eventually her deep-rooted fear of losing this loved one is not without its foundation since as aforementioned she has lost such people in the past.
Ultimately the song climaxes with the chorus, which seems to express that indeed what Billie dreaded has been realized. She finds herself alone without her loved one, unaware of his location and seemingly pondering if he will ever return. And her desire for him to “come home” is so strong that she doesn’t even care if he does such under false pretenses.